Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A Painful Truth

Something else Marti said on that recording really struck me...

How does it help move student media forward when you're going to write everything I say from your point of view, and that's the way it's gonna be? 

While the editors debated her on this point, I was truly ambivalent – in the classic definition of that word, meaning strong emotions both ways instead of no emotions either way.

In those few seconds of the back-and-forth, a dozen conflicting thoughts crossed my mind, several which troubled me...

  "It can't be easy to stand in front of a half-dozen hostile editors and talk about this stuff, with the tiny red light of a recorder always within your line of sight. Whatever differences you have with this woman, that takes guts."

  "But her The Post comment contradicts what she and Student Affairs have been saying for six weeks. She deserves tough questions."

  "Yeah, but this blog and the editor's have escalated things and made compromise impossible."

 "There wasn't going to be a compromise, anyway. At first, Student Affairs wouldn't even let you volunteer, or permit the students to meet with you off campus. Only by fighting loud and hard did FAU back down."

  "OK, if you're so right and righteous, then why do you feel so uncomfortable?"

TOMORROW: Why I feel so uncomfortable.