Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A Painful Truth

Something else Marti said on that recording really struck me...

How does it help move student media forward when you're going to write everything I say from your point of view, and that's the way it's gonna be? 

While the editors debated her on this point, I was truly ambivalent – in the classic definition of that word, meaning strong emotions both ways instead of no emotions either way.

In those few seconds of the back-and-forth, a dozen conflicting thoughts crossed my mind, several which troubled me...

•  "It can't be easy to stand in front of a half-dozen hostile editors and talk about this stuff, with the tiny red light of a recorder always within your line of sight. Whatever differences you have with this woman, that takes guts."

•  "But her The Post comment contradicts what she and Student Affairs have been saying for six weeks. She deserves tough questions."

•  "Yeah, but this blog and the editor's have escalated things and made compromise impossible."

• "There wasn't going to be a compromise, anyway. At first, Student Affairs wouldn't even let you volunteer, or permit the students to meet with you off campus. Only by fighting loud and hard did FAU back down."

•  "OK, if you're so right and righteous, then why do you feel so uncomfortable?"

TOMORROW: Why I feel so uncomfortable.